Thursday, September 15, 2005
*wake me up weN septembeR eNds*
n i meaN it.
septembeR haS beeN g0in prettY badly feR me..
sucky. t0tallY. feeliN damN l0w..
weR's tt sum1 weN i need him?
l0st sumweR. y? cuz we'Re fightiN.
0veR e slighteSt tiNg.
i'm tiRed. really am. i'm haviN maNy probS rite n0w t0 haNdle
n deR he iS makiN tiNgs w0rst. i said s0rry feR sumthiN i diN d0.
i gave iN t0 him. n wad d0 i get?
sileNce. n0 w0rds c0miN 0ut fr0m his m0uth.
is iT me wh0 huRt his feeliNs? 0r waS it e 0theR way r0und?
sumtimeS i w0nder.. y caNt we juS b lyke e 0ld timeS?
its lyke we'Re tryiN t0o haRd t0 make tiNgs betteR but its makiN tiNgs w0rst iNstead.
sigh.
s0phistifuNk's iN a meSs.
g0d-br0's r back wit relati0nship pr0bs.
family pr0bs.
j0b pr0bs.
bleah! tts y i said i hav n0 time feR tiNy shits.
'i g0tta shake it 0ff'
g0tta b indepeNdent feR n0w..
0nly i hav e key t0 settle my 0wn pr0bs..
s0rry peepS if i'm easily irritated..
i'm eaSily pissed 0ff n0w.
heRe's a lil sumthiN feR TT sum1.
i c0ntinued walkiN with n0 sense 0f directi0n
thinkiN bout e 0bject 0f my affecti0n
h0w he t0ok mY heaRt away
& deN juS simply left me aStray.
i'm tiRed 0f tiS.
i'm tiRed 0f u.
d0n aSk me y, i'm juS t0o tiRed t0 eveN reply.
i l0ok up int0 e sky,
a guSh 0f emptineSs sweepS acr0ss my face
& sl0wlY..paiNfully..itS esseNce grabS h0ld 0f me
until.. sileNce....
e laSt drip 0f tearS fallS d0wn t0 e gr0und.
n0 matteR h0w maNy s0rry'S i said,
i n0e u w0nt f0rgive me.
s0 be it. bye.
Y11:36 AM
