into oblivion.

Sunday, October 02, 2005

heyheY.. juS fiNished updatiN p-cub3 bl0g s0 heRe i am updatiN miNe..
fRi had a miNi claSs paRty iN skul..celeb 'childRens dae' yeah.. had pizzaS n all..hehe.. deN weNt h0me ta chaNge n meet shan-shiNe..supp0sedly t0 g0 sudy but we eNded up at suNtec.. aTe at siam kitcheN,made wisheS at e f0untaiN 0f wealth deN finally picked michie up fr0m w0rk.. nadz n sham weRe deR t0o s0 we walked t0 magic w0k cuz deY haveN eat.. siNce beStie'S w0rkplace nex d0or,we waiTed feR him ta fiNish w0rk n weNt ta staRbuckS s0meRset ta chill.. s0bz.. misSin my r0ot beeR..sigh.. diN get ta dRink it sia.. weNt 0ff b0ut 11.20 g0 cafe meet aiN cuz heR parentS pickiN heR up deN send me h0me as well.. yeah..

yeSt.. meet aiN at bugiS feR lunch.. cuz she w0rkiN.. deN weNt ta t0wn meet beStie watch m0vie.. c0uldN geT tix feR duke/4 br0s s0 i eNded up buyiN tix feR e red sh0es.. kwaNg3.. c0nfideNt aS we weRe, we eNded up scaRin 0urselveS..s0rry reddie, wil watch a pr0peR fuNny m0vie nex r0und k? meet up wiT mich,shaN n aiN.. deN weNta chill wiT kak n0ra n gaNg.. diN g0 h0me..waNted t0 g0 chiNa black but eNd up supeR l0ng queue s0 decided t0 juS chill at mac lid0.. red n waN wenT 0ff t0 MS.. yeah..b0ut 3 pluS eveRy0ne staRted t0 g0 h0me s0 me n aiN decided t0 g0 t0 e beach.. yupz.. t0ok 65M t0 tamp deN t0ok cab t0 ECP.. my staRs weRe shiNnin brightlY.. n e s0und 0f e waveS..itS beeN m0nthS siNce i laSt weNt deR..siNce maRch t0 b exact.. ahh.. cleaRed my miNd feR awhile..but itS cl0gged back up agaiN n0w..tch.. haiYa..

aTe breakfaSt at mac but aiN ended up sleepiN.. had a haRd time wakiN heR up sia.. weN i fiNally did,she waS lyke a walkiN z0mbie n me, e faRtin machiNe all e way back h0me.. hurhuR.. had my beauty sleep iN e buS(weReveR i culd lah t0 b exacT) keke.. n n0w back stariN at e c0mp.. w0rryiN b0ut examS n all.. b4 i g0, heRe's a lil s0methiN my mama wr0te feR me weN i waS d0wN.. weN u read iT u'll n0e wadS it all b0ut.. *wiNkz*

The day has come for me to let you know
The feelings deep down I've yearned to let go
Never had the courage to let you see..
The real picture, the real me.

Everything was so unplanned
From the beginning till the end
But slowly I've come to realize,
U're the one i idolised.

You were such a natural,
I admired you most
For your strengths and courage
And also all your faults.

You came to me along with the november wind.
Cold and chilling..but soothes deep within.
And how i came to realize what was missing
Whenever U're gone, i feel like screaming.

Finally i tried to express how i feel..
Deep down inside I'm hurting real..
Hoping by hope that u'll come to see...
That you and i...we might just be..

3hr spent on something so precious
my heart, my soul on a piece of paper
written with love and much despair,
i continued to stride through the air.

Not knowing how you would react,
I went ahead,And gave the letter thru someone else instead.
Without lookin back, i turned to see..
What your answer might only be..

I cried and cried without knowing anythin..
And came to front facing everything.
Things haf changed for the worst it seemed..
I'm sorry..that was never wad my heart meant.

Today in class, you gave me somethin..
Somethin so precious too it seems..
Slowly i read with tears brimming..
Held my strength till reachin the maximum within..

Slowly i let my tears flow..
In the safety seats behind my bedroom door.
I never expected this would turn out to be..The saddest thing ttz happening to me...

Y3:53 PM