Wednesday, December 14, 2005
'if uR feeliNs feR me aiNt e waY i feEl feR u deN juS....gdbYe l0uisE'
tt waS h0w tiRamisu eNded laSt niTe.
s-w-e-e-t?maYb.exacTly wad i waNna expreSs.i trY t0 pick up weR we laSt lefT.leaviN behiNd e huRt.buT still, everytimE i paSs bY 0rchaRd,d0bY ghauT,ciTy hall,mem0rieS cum smackiN straighT 0n my facE.e m0re i trY t0 puT u awaY, e m0re it all keepS c0miN t0 me.i d0n waNna tiNk b0ut u. i d0n waNna cRy everY niTe t0 sleep nim0re.i'm tRyna c0nviNce myself i caN d0 with0ut u.i n0e i caN. buT i'm liviN in denial n0w.cuz e mem0rieS juS keep fl0odiN back.i shuldN b writiN all tiS.cuz i n0e it waS all juS a gamE t0 u?tiS aiNt e firSt time.i waS s0 afraid t0 luv agaiN.buT u madE me givE my all.buT l0ok wadS happeN?denyiN each 0theRs existeNce.d0 u haTe me tt much?if u d0, plS tel mE.i n0e e tRuth hurTs.buT wadS huRt t0 me?i'm numb. i d0n waN anY 0f uR sympathY. let me bleEd 0n mY 0wN.i am n0thiN. i hav n0thiN. n0 l0oks,n0 braiNs,n0 m0neY,n0 stylE.figuRes. i'm a stupid, yeah sum saY arr0gaNt, uglY freaK.uR bdaE wish camE tRue [u pr0llY diN rem it.n all tt happeNed btwN uS i gueSs]c0ngratS.my bdaE? i hav a feeliN tt its g0n b e w0rSt eveR.mY 0nlY wiSh iS shatteRed.n0w, all i waN iS t0 gRaduatE n leavE evrythiN behiNd.if eveR u geT t0 read tiS, y b0theR? g0 t0p righT haNd corneR 0f tiS wind0w,n click e X sigN k. u d0n neEd t0 n0e h0w i feEl. u've huRt me enuf.samE t0 u guyS wh0'vE beeN talkiN b0ut mE behiNd my back,0r haTe me feR ??? X 0ff to0.hapPy advaNce bdaE syix swEetz! [16/12/05]luv u l0tS. thNx feR everythiN.
Y8:21 AM
