Friday, March 03, 2006
"timE iS nt 0n 0uR sidE"y d0es tT s0und s0 familiaR?iT to0k mE a weEk pluS..t0 finallY decidE t0 bl0g b0ut h0w i reallY feEl..i'vE beeN ign0raNt.n feR tT, i misSed 0ut 0n life'S greatEst tings. frenS.iTs sad tT mY lifE 0f 2yRs in ITE haS t0 eNd tiS waY.wil we 0nlY realisE h0w much we meaN t0 each 0theR weN we paRt?i gueSs s0. cuz iT takeS humaNs t0 eRr.replayiN bck t0 July 2004..waS kiNda cl0se t0 fizzy. n a lil 0f shashiE iN e pic to0..n weR r we n0w? mileS aparT..i wiSh i knew weR all tis weNt wr0ng..n sumh0w, we'Re all t0 blame..cuz we leT 0uR pRide n eg0 geT in e waY..tel mE wh0 in tiS w0rld aiNt stubb0rn?i'm suRe all 0f uS arE..iTs cuz 0f 0uR mindseT n th0se small lil fighTs tT dr0ve us in tiS c0rneR..i waSnt planniN t0 huRt n0r haRm aNy1 iN thesE 2 yrs..buT i gueSs i did..tel me, if sayiN s0rrY t0 tT sum1 w0nt makE him/heR t0 f0rgivE/f0rgeT,wad wuld u d0?i misS th0sE daYs.. [weN mY mindseT waS still naivE]neveRtheleSs, we had fun diN we?all th0sE laughteRs, all th0sE squeeziN 9 ppl 0n e caNteeN tablE
weN it caN 0nly fiT 8..we dRifted s0 faR untiL we l0st tRack wh0 we reallY weRe.i n0e i'vE chaNged al0t..iN sum waY go0d,n bad iN an0theR..i'm nT a failuRe, neitheR am i a succeSs0r.iTs e mistakeS we madE tT'll makE uS learN n b str0ngeR..i n0e i'm tRyin..n i n0e sumh0w my mindseT aiNt wad iT waS b4..e em0ti0nal sidE 0f me wil sTay..cuz tTs e 0nlY easiesT waY t0 let 0ut mY s0rr0wS..buT i n0e, i'vE learNt t0 accepT lifE as full 0f humps..a tEsT 4rm g0d i'd daRe saY..n alhamdulilah, iTs thRu th0se humpS tT madE mE stR0ngeR..i diN pick mY freNs..i d0n ch0sE wh0 i lykE/dislykEitS jus h0w well u b0nd wiT em..which denS tuRn t0 b depeNdeNt 0n em..yeS,i admiT..i am to0 depeNdenT 0n aiN n mama..esp aiN..cuz i'm uSed t0 haviN 2 besties wiT mE..wh0'll cheeR me up n cRy wiT me weN i fall..buT i n0e i caNt b selfish..cuz she haS heR 0theR half..aT timeS i feel s0 l0Nely tT no0nE undeRstaNds h0w i feEl..l0ckiN myself up behiNd mY bedro0m do0r,i leaRnt t0 cRy haRdeR n luv littleR[if eveR deR is such w0rd]hav i gr0wN t0 b sum1 i really waNted?am i making full usE 0f thiS 3 WEEKS lefT 0f skul?i'm gRateful tT i hav nadz,mich,shaN,faezah,kakak,syam,aiN n huda..eveN siTi in tiS peri0d.. all i asked feR is t0 givE me stRength peepS..n sh0wEr me wiT luv which i l0ngEd feR..i'm s0rRy if i eveR huRt u guys 0ne waY 0r e 0theR..its jus tT i dun waNna l0se u guYs..if i waS judgEd 0n wh0 i am baSed 0n wh0 i haNg 0ut wiT,deN u guyS r missiN 0n e besT humaN g0d eveR creatEd..e l0ud qiE [0k,i'm pr0m0tiN myself heRe buT itS feR a gd causE.hurhuR]no0nE has e riTe t0 judge 0theRs..cuz every0ne'S special..t0 nazRi,khaiRul, if u guyS eveR geT t0 read tiS,big hugz t0 u b0th..uR existeNce tis pasS weEk made mE realisE sumthiN..b 0peN lah qiE! talk t0 evry1!kekE.. i juS waNna say thNx feR helpiN 0ut iN e fr0ntpagE! hehe..t0 0gY, if u happeN t0 read tiS,thNx guRl feR in a waY makiN me realisE h0w ign0raNt i've beEn..all e besT t0 u sweEtz..sigh.. i wiSh i had m0re timE.. t0 relievE th0se '0ld' mem0rieS..t0 makE m0re freNs..t0 meNd th0se br0keN frenshipS,
t0 luv m0rE..t0 makE ppl f0rgivE 0ne an0tha..eveN if tiNgs caNt b e waY it waS,y cNt we stil b freNs?thNx syam feR perf0rmiN tiS s0ng tT daY.. i'm in luv wiT it feR n0w..n thNx feR makiN me n aiN's daY yesT feR falliN 0ff heR c0mp chaiR..duh..tel mE all tiS aiNt endin so0n..d0 i reallY hafTa cl0se tiS chp 0f mY lifE?wil i b ablE t0 makE it thRu?i waNted s0 badlY t0 graduatE..e real reas0n, is t0 ruN awaY 4rm e unhappinesS..n ruN awaY 4rm mYself..sYix, thNx feR tT small chaT wiT u laSt nitE..sumh0w,i felT betteR..buT u diN tel mE wad i shuld d0..0h cRap qie!denial lagik.tRuth iS, i waN e ISP 0f July 2004.n i defiNitelY waN U bck aS mY bestiE..th0sE chaTs wiT u..n th0sE tingS tt u said t0 make me str0ngeR..u reallY t0t me al0t 0f tiNgs.. n i sinceRely waNna THANK Y0U 4 tT.i misS chilliN wiT u, nadz,aiSh, ayul,syam n aiN aT staRbuckS..th0sE pr0bs we shaRed..th0se laughteRs..it meaNs s0 much t0 me..d0n u geT iT?deY undeRstand h0w i feEl..buT d0 they n0e h0w exactlY i feEl?0f all e tiNgs we shaRed..i'm s0rRy feR beiN an aSs.n sayiN s0rry w0nt makE u f0rgivE me..wiT tT big eg0 n inseNsitiviTy,wuld u feR 0nce give uR besTie heRe a chaNce?buT,is iT w0rth e tRy?sum1 plS tel me it iS..0h.. e pleaSure 0f writtiN dwN my t0tS..i culd juS g0 0n n 0n..buT derS a limiT t0 everythiN..ah.. s0 break uR limitati0ns..u'll b suRe t0 g0 fuRtheR..itS sayiN gdbyE so0n..buT i w0nT saY tT..saY 'til we meEt agaiN!'peepS, tel me we wil.. (=*givE me bck tiS pls ->
*weN summeR apRil retuRns, i'll dance wiT u agaiN*
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