Sunday, June 18, 2006
eveRy1 haS t0 makE paiNful decisi0ns iN life.wil u leT g0 of sumthiN tt u build fr0m scRatch/ a 'wE' build fr0m scRatch?n if i weRe t0 say, if its feR e betteR?i'm caughT up in tiS meSs which seEms t0 b bl0ckiN my braiNs fr0m functi0niNg pr0peRly..i juS caNt seEm t0 'unTangle iT'which resultEd t0 b0ttled-feeliNs-leT-out-iNto-teaRs.i n0e wadS my aNs buT i'm stil ficklE b0ut iT.i'm draiNed..
lykE
T0TALLY caN.
e veRy last biT 0f energY left iS beiN squeEzed t0 type tis p0st..
it haS beeN a veRy long weEk..
feR me, feR s0phis..
staRted 0ut bY my fatheR g0t h0spitaliSed..
while i'm w0rryiN 0veR e resultS of hiS sickneSs, i waS w0rried b0ut e unfiNished taskS t0 b d0ne feR s0phis.
sumh0w, amaziNgly, everythiN fell int0 placE nicely..
0nly one pr0b..
e stepS.
i'm lykE e w0rst 'panickeR' [yeah,i neEdta tone dwn]
well, which d0esN seEm t0 b helpiN getTin tings d0ne..
s0 bla3 dayS weNt by..
deN came fri..
lasT min learniN steps..
ainT c0mplaiNin but damN, i waS scaRed sick.
i kNew i waS g0n scRew up.
n i did.
tiS time waaayyy badly.
saT camE n e c0nfideNce level waS lyke ___ .here.
stRutTed up t0 stagE wen 0ur name waS beiN called..
weN e music came 0n,
e real nightmaRe began..
i waS N0T deR. lyke deR.
i felT i waS in maRs 0r sumthiN..
i heaRed e music playiN n i waS thr0wiN out e stepS,
buT sumh0w i jus culdN 'feEl iT'
it happeNed duriN prelims to0.
uugghh.
n we screwEd up
VERY badly..
alm0st every1 buRst int0 tears 0nce deY hit e gr0und afteR e judgeS c0mmeNts.
i cudn cry. dun ask me why..
i juS felT t0tally sick at tt p0int of timE.
lykE i waS s0 embarraSed bY e wh0le tiNgy tt it kepT replayiN in mY head.
thNx feR all e c0mmeNts n i kNew wad i hadta d0 b0ut iT,b0ut uS.
s0 i did.
wiT ain'S help.
thNx sweEtz.
which briNgs us bck t0 e pr0b ab0ve.
i waS giveN a ch0ice.
a t0ugh one.
which i twiSted n g0t d0uble 'beNefits' in retuRn.
i kNew wad was g0n b mY ans.
buT n0netheleSs, i stil hadta get e 0theR's 0pinion.
der'S so maNy pr0s n cons,
n a
HUGE decisi0n to makE..
s0 much s0 my ans iS a p0sitive one,
i'm stil ficklE b0ut it.
s0 much feR turniN 20.
i raN 0ut of v0cabs i slurred my waY thru 'e meetiN'
i waN tis s0 badlY..
i neEdta spaRk my passi0n once agaiN.
re-live iT.
i'm s0 losiN t0uch.
derS so maNy tings supp0rtiN my ans..
buT it all cums dwn t0 onE pic.
wad wil e 0utcome be?
n wil u guyS respecT my decisi0n?
tRust me,
e ppl + g0ssips we havTa facE afTr tt..
welcum t0 biTchy land.
s0 peEps, i haveN g0tteN ur anS..
n if u neEdta talk t0 me, beEp me.
a heaRt t0 heaRt talk aT uR service.
kakak qiE is bck ;)
weNt off ta chaleT aT chaNgi aftR tT..
e laughteRs thr0ughouT e j0urney..
damN i feEl 'y0ung' beiN ar0und wiT e y0ung oneS.
i felT e l0ve.
afteR such a l0ng timE cRavin feR it.
thNx feR makiN my day u all!lepak-ed aT e chaleT..
buT waS gettiN restleSs by e min,
cuz 0f e vibe..
lyke duh uh,
e chaleT was
RIGHT BELOW OCH.
ahuh!! freEeaakkkyy!
alif waS tryiN t0 scare me n all.. padahal he waS lyke waaayy peNakut..
hehE. n sittiN wit fi watchiN e repeaT of dimeNsi ke-4 waS lyke scaRy+funny.
l0l.
n shawN, if u eveR dr0p by heRe t0 read,
uR 0ne hell of a cRazy driveR..
mcm apE tau tak?
gamE crazY taxi 0r sumthiN yke tt.
u shud be glad i diN puke in uR caR thNx t0 e speediN n c0rner-in n all th0se daNger0us stuNts u did yesT m0Rn.
buT it waS kinda fuN th0ugh.
l0l. n 0h, e bap0k's @ chaNgi villagE,
tRy haRder aight ;)
w0ke up aT 8.15 ta bathe n geT ready feR h0me..
g0tta rush cuz g0t abg sedare's weddiN.
s0 eNd up weNt bck wiT yusuf jEk..
yeah i n0e we lo0k lyke idi0ts sleepiN in e traiN.
nyahahaha.
n oh, spaRe me e sn0res ppl!
sleepiN neaR guys waS hell.
sufi esp! mcm baTu sak tid0! haiYa.
sampai biNgit i to0k e cushi0n n slepT in e ro0m instead.
0k, u
ALL arE beiN missed areadY!!
weN r we g0n do it agaiN?
heaRts u all. luv <3
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