Saturday, December 30, 2006
tiS faR<-in a bliNk of an eyE,
2007's heRe.
happY 20th haTch daY t0 mE.06's beeN a r0lleR c0asteR ridE.
0ne momeNt deR i waS aT ECP celEb NYE,
e nex, heRe i am in fr0nt 0f e c0mp summarisiN e yR.
i'vE cum tiS far 0nly t0 realisE
i haveNt lo0k back t0 e tRails 0f mY fo0tprinT i lefT behiNd in quiTe awhilE.
in a bliNk 0f aN eyE, any1,anythiN,evrythiN caN chaNge.
i, leaRnt it e haRd waY.
itS beeN 3/4 slackiN feR me tiS yr.
skul waS 0veR waY bck iN apRil.
fillEd up mY timE theReafter wiT daNce pracS,c0mps,biTchin & chilliN wiT e y0ung oneS.
e scaRs tT diN heal aRe healiN righT n0w as im speakiN 0f iT.
im gRateful t0 god im stil heRe.
i madE maNy wr0ng m0veS,rasH decisi0ns, laughEd til i cRied & stupid stuffS i nvR t0t i wud.
it all t0t me 0ne tiNg, i am, by faR, a betteR pers0n.
stil impeRfect buT i n0e i'vE matuRed sumh0w, sumwaY.
im stil tRyna h0ld on stR0ng,
stil tRyna find e reas0n wad im heRe feR.
stil tRyna fiNd e real ME.
upseT, yes, y did iT hadTa happeN t0 mY fam.
maYb its kaRma or muNgkin ada hikmah diSebalik segala yg teRjadi.
U weRent deR wen i neEded u m0st duriN my daRkesT hrs.
U lefT weN i beggEd feR f0rgivneSs.
no explanati0N,n0thin camE out of uR m0uth.
im nt e 0nlY 0ne disapp0iNted wiT U, s0 weRe e resT.
sumdaY u'll realisE wad u'vE beeN missiN all tiS whilE.
n0thin meaNs m0re thaN e ppl tt nvR left u.
im glad HE didn. & so didn u, mY freNs.
i g0t mY veRy firsT full timE j0b in aug.
e 'lifE' evry1 feaRs t0 b iN.
i admiT i d0 feEl e feaR at fiRst but n0w,
im nj0yiN evry miN 0f iT.
indepeNdeNt's e w0rd.
mixiN wiT ppl wh0, atE m0re salT deN i did,
madE me feel e y0ungesT, [well i am]
& verY blesSed t0 b ar0und em.
deY 0peNed up mY eyeS t0 e haRsh reality as well aS e fuN/funnY sidE 0f lifE.
nt stiNgy in shaRin at all.
e yaRd. heRe's weR i g0t to n0e U.
i alwaEs keep mysElf shuT aftEr a bad fall
buT sumh0w, mY heaRt says, givE it a tRy.
i did & im s0 nT regrettiN cuz im nj0yiN evry siNgle miN 0f iT.
thNx siTi.
U fillEd my daYs aT w0rk wiT uR dailY mSgs,
tT nvR fail t0 keEp me awakE fr0m d0zin 0ff,
e suddeN buRst 0f l0ud laughteR whilE readiN uR msg makiN ppl tiNg im cRazy,
UR lovelY ridE tT brightenS up mY day n0eiN tt uR ar0und.
abseNce tT madE e heaRt gr0w fondeR. U camE,lefT buT staYed. cuz i n0e U caRe.
deRs s0 maNy tingS to saY b0ut U..
buT 'all gd tiNgs cum t0 an eNd'.
im conteNted enuf UR heRe bY me.
"i juS waN u t0 noe wh0 i am.."
i d0. cuz UR alReady makiN me smilE silly.
i pRay feR a betteR 07, cuz iTs my fav n0.
hahaS.. i waNna w0rk haRd,plaY haRd,luv unc0nditi0nallY,tRavel & d0 lotSa2 stuffs.
timE hasN beEn 0n mY side aS w0rk's beEn draiNin me..
buT imma w0man 0f w0rds & i'll puT em int0 acti0n.
sTay wiT mE sweEtz. im wEak w/o u guyS.
& U, if u eveR t0ok mY hand, plS duN eveR let mE g0.
HappY nEw yR t0 all <3
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