Tuesday, July 07, 2009
love not knows its true depth until the hour of separation - kahlil gibran
aftr hearing euphoric news(s) of 'kpak bing, bings' filling e air recently,
it has sumhow moved me to get involved. [no, nt tt i wanna get married now]
Involved in such a way tt got me pretty excited tinking bout e nitty gritty details of hw i want my big day to look like.
[dun start rolling ur eyes can? im sure u hav urs too lor. haha]
& my lips wud break into a smile jus picturing it.
oh, such lovely tots. spending e rest of ur lifetime wit the chosen other half.
"hw do u noe if tt sum1 is the one" u asked.
"ur gut feelin. u jus, know..." i said.
"sumtimes ur gut feelin is wrong u noe" u said.
"den ask god. he'll give u e ans" i replied.
yes, im in no position to give u an ans cuz apparently i haven been thru e worst [& insyaallah pray tt i dun hav to]
but tts e best ans i can offer. ive seen & heard enuff tt sumtimes it sparked e fear in me despite e beautiful tots of marriage spoken above.
"kita merancang, jodoh dan takdir di tangan tuhan"
a lifetime vow broken by a 3rd party, by e many other million reasons.
is divorce the only solution?
e word in itself sends shivers down my spine.
i yearn so much to help u get back on ur feet,
to help u pull thru tis trialing period.
to shake u from ur contradictary tots of not gettin a divorce.
no, not tt im evil or anythin but wen its time to let go, u let go.
a woman can stand wit her own 2 feet without a man in their life my dear fren. i can quote examples of woman who made it thru e rain but at e end of e day, it boils down to u.
no1 said twas easy. but we've got a pride to uphold.
never, never bow down to e man who made u suffer nt once, nt twice but aplenty. prove it to him ur betta off w/o him.
a woman who is jus too dependant on a man is jus sad, sad. [& tts anotha story altogetha]
i may not hav known u long enuff to judge wad u hav been thru
but u noe tt i wan u to realise wads best fer u.
stay strong gf. u noe i got ur back.
Y10:30 AM
