& it is also today tt i really miss u most.

i keep checkin my phone in case i get a text frm u,

a call frm u sayin tt u wanna meet me or sumthin.

jus hearing ur voice wudve made me feel betta.

but i doubt it'll happen.

ive been cryin every nite now b4 i sleep.

n watchin Personal Taste made me realise alot of tings about myself.

im not a weak person.

i strived hard fer e tings i want n i can b quite tough at times.

but y is it i can b tough on my frens but i cant quite b tough on my decision to leave u,

i myself cant quite grasp it.

i am sucha soft hearted person wen it comes to love.

my late dad loved me in a weird way.

he was harsh n everythin else at me n i used to hate him alot.

bt tt was his way of showing me love anyway.

i keep replaying in my head wad it wud b like to hav sum1 who showers me wit all e love in e world, who'd treat me 1001 times betta den my ex's or e guys i dated or my late dad or even Aizat, bt even den, i tink i'd b uneasy.

bcuz der is no perfect guy in tis world.

im nt perfect either.

we ALL hav flaws.

so fer sum1 to say tt i deserve better,

what is definition of better?

Y4:49 PM